Why ... no kids or ❤️

Canisha... why you do not have children? Why haven’t you married anyone yet ?

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I’m truly scared to love someone and then have deal with the fact that they may leave me that one day God can call them home. One day they can fall out of love and I’m stuck fixing and picking up the pieces. I’m scared of love! I’m scared to let someone love me. I love hard i love to be loved and i go hard for ppl i love! I haven’t chose to have children because the world is cruel. Bullying is real and most of all there are ppl who hate African Americans and i don’t want To inflict the pain of a dumb person onto my child. See when you become a parent you are to protect them from everything. When they become older they tend to see the world be in it and you trust what you teach them will guide them. Somethings you can’t protect them what you teach them won’t get them through. Mental illness, heart break , being black, or the feeling of not being enough. I’ve always painted a picture of what i wanted my live life like. The way he would propose the places we would travel how my children would be conceived and even how I’ll love my husband and my family. This world is cruel ppl have motives. People don’t have good intentions. Your love is measured on what you can do for a person or how much you can see into them. Mentally I’m not ready. Even though i May never be ready but i pray hard that if god leads me to face these situations become a mother and a wife that he guides me to a good man and gives me children that know that i want only the best will go to war for them and my family and in the darkest moments I’ll be THERE!

My thoughts are just my own. So when you ask those two questions just know this is why. I’ve cried too many tears from heart break, I’ve picked up pieces from men who i thought i loved. I’ve stayed loyal to men that i should have left where they where. I’ve cried for kids cause no one could help the situations that adults put them in or that they couldn’t help them get out of.

Life is a journey some people’s are easy some are not! I just extend my hand say a prayer often god what’s for me will be for me and if it’s not that’s fine for me!

Don’t think i don’t want love or that i don’t want children but i want to be able to see into my family protect them as they need be and my partner will want to honor the vowels and most all protect their family. No one or nothing can come between it. Not infidelity, social media, time, and illness. NOTHING ‼️

This bible verse says it all😌

lesiastes 4:9-12

"Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."